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Secret Admirer

by Zoe Guigueno

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1.
Bring Figs 03:43
Bring figs, he adores the taste Seeds in his teeth, I’ll brush them out later Singing along to old 78s Drop the needle, wind the crank His mother ran naked through the living room She slammed through the screen door where her clothes were drying on the front porch Tomorrow she’ll lay smoking in bed all day but most days she’s up with the sun she works like a farmer and her work’s never done His Bolshevik grandma a fox in her day Trembling, arthritic hands fill my plate her daughters dye their hair in the sink and crouch in the grass reading politics and next week their father will try to boss them around What once was his kingdom is now their land Grout the chimney, gut the basement, chuck the lamps Tend to the things you love stop the spreading cracks A paint-splattered shirt, a bra in her purse if she goes to town Lift him up out of his chair into their green sedan and the first thing he does is find the crank to roll the window down with the wind rushing in round his head he adores the sound he adores the sound
2.
Richard 03:54
Richard I heard your story today You took a plane and taxiied out on the runway Out of line, you lifted off into the sky With your sights on the Olympics Richard I heard your voice on the recording Talking to air traffic control Out of line, you still wanted company Flying over Puget Sound And you weren’t ready to come down I know the feeling Richard You knew the fuel was running low But you wanted to pull off that barrel roll Out of line, like in a lucid dream Everything was possible And you weren’t ready to come down I know the feeling You weren’t ready to come down Some said What an irresponsible man! He could have hurt so many others with his shenanigans Some said What a champion! He did what most would only dream of
3.
I came home with alcohol in my blood again Like a stain on a new shirt, it didn't last long But so far so good No significant damage done in a while Oooh I'm gettin' away with, oooh I'm gettin' away with it Oooh I'm gettin' away I came home riding my bike hummin' a tune I'd just been at the bar, I was in a fine mood But so far so good No significant damage done in a while Oooh I'm gettin' away with it, oooh I'm gettin' away with it Oooh I'm gettin' away I'm gettin' away with it, oooh I'm gettin' away with it Oooh I'm gettin' away If you don't ask then I won't tell I'll let you think you know me well I've got no reason to change 'Cause I'm gettin' away with it, oooh I'm gettin' away with it Oooh I'm gettin' away I'm gettin' away with it, oooh I'm gettin' away with it Oooh I'm gettin' away credits
4.
6am, I swing my legs over the edge of the bed The blanket's on the floor, I got too warm last night Kitchen tiles are cold beneath my feet, I put the kettle on and watch the gasoline burn blue and gold Opening the curtain to the world I find, to my surprise the sky is loose and falling to the ground Oh, a change of season brings a change of heart what was gettin' me so down I do not know January hides the dirty parts Underneath the snow All the way up Rugby Road, the pretty painted houses show their colours through the bright newfallen snow Past the soccer field and through the fence I walk by the skating rink, under a bridge into the trees Oh, a change of season brings a change of heart what was gettin' me so down I do not know January hides the dirty parts Underneath the snow Swans and mallards swim through channels in the halfway frozen lake and grey on white, a heron passes overhead The snow is like a dampening felt like music after dark through bedroom walls I hear it passing on the street Oh, a change of season brings a change of heart what was gettin' me so down I do not know January hides the dirty parts Underneath the snow
5.
Shoreward 02:22
Shoreward lyrics by Taylor Ashton Once the sea was teeming and we easily filled our nets I knew the feast was fleeting but I let myself forget when it's gone it takes your voice too did you say to follow you? Now the ocean's angry as a tangled unmade bed Clouds as dark and looming as words best left unsaid It's hard to hear over the raging blue Did you say to go with you? Do we push forward? Or do we wait out the storm that forced our boats shoreward? I stand at the water, though for now it's not my place Maybe just to feel the salt spray on my face Close my eyes and listen to the sea Hear it whisper, Wait for me Do we push forward? Or do we wait out the storm that forced our boats shoreward?
6.
We were waiting at at table for Tibetan food we were solving Friday's crossword, the last couple clues Heads turned when we cried out our victory We always loved each other's company But we were never that close Though we talked every day for years We never trusted each other, never spoke our minds So there you go We chose a campsite in a tricky place Had to wade across the river up to our waists We made a fire, sat on a log and then tucked in together in a one-man tent But we were never that close Though we talked every day for years We never trusted each other, never spoke our minds So there you go I thought that he was right I thought our love was so vast, you couldn't get there overnight I thought the pangs of doubt were just glitches in the system that I could tune out But we were never that close Though we talked every day for years We never trusted each other, never spoke our minds So there you go
7.
I saw the sky sucked slowly down behind a desert ridge Crying out with every colour it knew but it didn't shake me like your words did I saw the layers of history in river-eaten rock Colorado canyon cutting deep but it didn't shake me like your words did it didn't shake me like your words did Don't overexplain I heard you the first time I get what you're saying I saw the blackest night becoming white in a silent storm Zeus's fever dreams danced in my head But it didn't shake me like your words did My heavy head against the glass Your letter sitting heavy in my lap I barely notice all the miles going past and I don't know the state I'm in My heavy head against the glass Your letter sitting heavy in my lap I could have watched the world collapse But it wouldn't shake me like your words did It couldn't move me like that news And I'm happy for the both of you
8.
Firefly 03:05
Firefly caught in a spider's web half dead Chipmunk running on a low stone wall don't fall Easy as you go Easy as you go Driving much too fast in pouring rain Stay in your lane Baby's in the kitchen cooking rice Don't slice your hand Easy as you go Easy as you go After dinner we sat out in the long grass where the beetles blink and glow You were set on catching one for me but you caught poison ivy Back to city life, you're off to work your legs hurt Pushing through the aching pain all day Working late Easy as you go I remember sitting out in the long grass watching beetles blink and glow Like a little boy you tried to catch one Tried to be my hero
9.
Tangled Yarn 02:47
Tangled Yarn lyrics by Taylor Ashton, Zoe Guigueno & Alec Spiegelman Tangled yarn caught up in the branches sway in the wind and rearrange Fold into strange and different shapes and the lengths may tighten and break Where did you get those beautiful eyes and where did you get the love behind? Who really knows you, who do you go to? what are you hoping to find? Here are the diamonds, here is the cradle How did you get from one to the next? Tangled yarn let go from the hands to catch on a different branch Whether or not our blood is the same and whether we share a house or a name You really know me, know how to hold me Bring me into the frame Show me once more How you made the babe-being-born Letting go of tangled yarn (sway in the wind...)
10.
Call Me Back 03:54
I’m in my pajamas, heating up soup and I feel like talking to you I call your phone, are you home or are you out on the road Quinoa cooks up so fast, remember when you lived up on Lenox Ave You were rarely there but when you were you were in your kitchen too But sometimes we’d hang out in the park we’d bring a picnic and a guitar Funny being self-employed we think we’re playing hooky when we’re taking it easy well, call me back when you get my message Call me back when you can Call me back when you get my message Call me back when you can I know you’re at least as nostalgic as me doesn’t it just drive you crazy It’s so hard to stop wrestling with time you know I think it’s in our nature There’s just so many books to read So many songs, we’ll never know them all people to love, places to walk this is what we live for so call me back when you get my message Call me back when you can Call me back when you get my message Call me back when you can
11.
In the Water 02:31
Driftwood fire Secret admirer Cedar branch Steep dark path to the water In the water in all my clothes I was a part of the whole Blurry lines Changing tides with the day From the house keep an eye on the bay In the water in all my clothes I was a part of the whole Summer night Red moon low in the sky Glowing sand under bare feet In the water without my clothes I was a little bit older

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released June 5, 2020

All songs by Zoe Guigueno except:

Change of Season by Zoe Guigueno & Alec Spiegelman
Shoreward by Zoe Guigueno & Taylor Ashton
Like Your Words by Zoe Guigueno & Alec Spiegelman
Tangled Yarn by Zoe Guigueno, Taylor Ashton and Alec Spiegelman

All performances by Zoe Guigueno & Alec Spiegelman except:

Taylor Ashton - banjo on Bring Figs, vocals on Shoreward and Tangled Yarn
Adam Iredale-Gray - fiddle on Richard, Shoreward, Never That Close, Like Your Words
Marlies Iredale - vocals on Richard, Like Your Words
Robin MacMillan - drums on Richard, Change of Season, Shoreward, Never That Close, Like Your Words, Firefly
Nadje Noordhuis - flugelhorn on Change of Season, Tangled Yarn

Produced & engineered by Alec Spiegelman at the Chamber of Commerce, Brooklyn NY

Mixed by Bryce Goggin at Trout Studios, Brooklyn NY

Mastered by Phillip Shaw Bova in Ottawa, ON

Album artwork by Jeremy Herrmann

CD design by Mariel Vandersteel

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Zoe is a Canadian songwriter and bass player living in Queens, NY.

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